The ``game of feelings``

I have learnt in a hard way never to put my emotions and feelings to a game .Never to believe i could have the stony part of me always there at my defense.So this a sad story which will be ending pretty soon .

Why did you ever want to get involved in a game u deeply believe u would come out a loser?Why would u ever wanna play a game of love and of a strong heart!

I am not saying here that we can`t win sometimes,but rather you need a strategy.

Today i stand in awe of the word called LOVE.Still trying hard to give it my own definition .........

In my life i have felt it so many times or at least i have thought it was LOVE .But of late i have been re-thinking what that word really means......So am gonna start the search for a definition of love !

Sure will be back here to tell u what i found out .

Just for the records ...I am in love right now!I have ever loved and been loved several times.I have been made to believe i was the most important thing under the sun !yeah funny but right....i have been deceived into believing "loving someone is letting them go if they ever come back then you are meant to be''What if they never come back ?Then it wasn't meant to be right?and they never loved you right?

So what at all is LOVE?

The snow

I`m not sure if this sounds normal to you .But whiles every student yearns for the snowy day of no class i find myself praying that the snow promised would just stay up there somewhere in the sky !heheh
yeah it,s my first day at grad school and i don`t want to miss it!
The snow can come down later but not today .......just not today!

Life just started ....................................

I sit here and wonder ..wonder how am going to make it to the end!
Filled with so much enthusiasm ,it`s surprising a little bit of fear lies in between
So i see myself counting down ....counting down to that very day where i would find myself in front of that exam paper(in between i love to study but hate exams)
My new town aint what we call fun!
Very serene and perhaps the right place to start this new journey ........
Around me are fellow country men and women.....
So i glee......I glee cos they give me the force to start this journey ..........

Am so New to this

Ok so one time i think all is set to start that dreadful journey ...
And then i realize how it is a road of no return .....
So i think and think and think ....and could only take solace in the words of ...Mr.Nobody
`A blow that is inevitably yours ............`
hmmm such is life .But when would i ever feel it,s time ....oh no i didn`t mean it that way ....rewind ..i meant when would i be really ready to start this journey cos as for feeling it...... i sure do now........Ready???????????????
So yesterday was all good and rosy then today all seem so sour .....
But they say so is the journey ......
I aint complaining cos i take solace in the rosy days..but then again i wish it could always be this rosy .....
In fact this journey looks tough but then again ....it is a journey i can`t get raid of ....

God guide me every path and lead me through this journey !cos the soul is willing but the body is weak!

The News

My name is Edinam ...it`s Ewe and it means God has favored me .......
well yeah he has and in so many ways........
trust names surly have an implication in a child`s life and so be careful what and after who you name your children
I couldn't have asked for any other name .......
God has been so good to me
it`s even hard to start to count the blessings..and worse is i just don`t deserve it

So i have concluded ...God loves me and His plans for me are just to prosper me .....
I could only give him thanks.......
the news came in less than 48hrs
I am a step from realizing a part of my dream ...and it`s all about Him

Tuskegee here i come !

35 Random things about me

1. I love my surname. It has a z ,an s, and two ii’s
2. I speak Portuguese fluently,read and understand spanish.....but just can,t remember what happened to all the french ....AL here i come
3. I scare myself sometimes with my own confidence
4. I love God and love being in His presence.
5. I am a talkative,love to talk about everything and nothing !
6. I love my family and my friends and always wanna say in touch with them
7. I love life and always want to live each day to the fullest
8. I learnt to forgive yeah and it,s a great feeling
9. Somehow ,I never learnt how to swim …yeah I still wear the bikini and just play around the pool
10. Never finished my driving lessons…ooops I still can’t drive but pls don,t hesitate to give me a car as a gift ....
11. I’m more active at night than during the day
12. I love to travel and wish I could be everywhere at the same time
13. You name it whatever you like ….but I really love myself!
14. I stayed years without my favorite dish …Kenkey with hot pepper and fish
15. I love Yakisoba
16. I love to smile always and hate to be seen crying
17. I’m a very determined person ,got dreams and run really fast after them
18. In two years time .i want to be in the world bank!
19. I love shoes and still dream of having more than a 200 of them before I hit 26 (aint telling my age)
20. I love shopping !who doesn,t especially if that means coming home with beautiful new high heels
21. I want to look good all the time .
22. I feel sexiest when I wake up in the morning !lol yeah I like what I see in the mirror …….lol
23. I love Rio de Janeiro and all my new friends there
24. I just can’t smile at failure, I give it a frown and cast it out
25. I Prefer sleeping to eating
26. I always leave some food in my plate (well kenkey is out of this though)
27. I can dance Zouk, Salsa and I do some samba too. Those are just damn too sensual!
28. When I’m sad or hurt I listen to some soul music …it works just fine for me
29. Just like the dog when I love once, I love forever……
30. Drink deep or not …..I’d rather not start than to go halfway
31. Most people love me or hate me ……there just isn,t a middle way
32. I’m getting addicted to facebook and this aint good at all
33. I understand a lot about football…hope you know why ..when u’re in rome you def have to do as the Romans do !lolKLong live Man U
34. I’m annoying and I’m so much aware of that
35. Eu amo voces todos!

HOPE

The wind by that sea brought me hope today
A Hope of love and joy
A hope of brighter days to come
A hope of honey and milk
A hope that will come to stay
The wind brought me so much of a hope
A breeze that carried but kisses and songs of love
A breeze that put a smile on my face
A breeze that transmitted the waves of love
A love that i`d longed to feel
Alas!the rains came down ....
Came down so strongly
Then i knew that the message was through
The message of love and hope
The message of comfort and reassurance
The message that my love promised
Promised but to me ......at the beach...........
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So the fact remains......
When there is life ....there is hope!